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May 16 head downHead down
I knew the pain, I knew the heartache.
Believe me coz I've been that way.
Heavy rains like heavy winter days
put the fire out that never did rage.
I'm starting to know this guilt inside
I'm starting to feel this new pain that hides.
I'm sorry for doing you wrong
I'm sorry if I'm not strong.
Shame has captured my soul
and my eyes are telling it all.
I'm sorry If it need to end this way.
I'm sorry coz I did it anyway.
Head down, my head's on the ground,
I can't lift it coz I look like a clown
Hell is laughing and heaven's crying
and the little soul is tired trying.
As I move on with my life
I will think of the things that made it die,
I will think of those days I made you cry,
I can't forget coz you've been part of this life.
So I'm sorry fom the bottom of my heart,
I'm so sorry that we have to part.
I know you know that the best way is this
the path to light the path for us to see.
 December 02 the little soulTHE LITTLE SOUL
a little soul hammered the tiny room that I am in
and for a long time at last a tiny ray came in
the light hurt my eyes for a while but it made see
for the darkness made me blind from one to three
a thing missiled thru my heart and I don't know
what kind of feeling is this I don't wanna throw
then a longing to embrace that tiny soul outside
makes me shiver more from what I'm feeling inside
I tried to break the wall that killed me long ago
and greet the soul outside I want to say hello
but as I was about to reach out the soul suddenly reached in
and light came in fast as she took me from within
and swiftly this feeling came like a friend from the past
thank you little soul I'll take care of you until my last...
November 23 for my ni... love you!!!hi ni! this is my song for you... love you...
LEARNING TO BREATHE
hello goodmorning how you do?
what makes your rising sun so new
I could use a fresh beginning too
all of my regrets are nothing new
this is the way that I say I need you
this is the way... this is the way...
that I'm learning to breathe
I'm learning to crawl
I'm finding that you and you alone can break my fall
I'm living again, awake and alive
I'm dying to breathe in this abundant skies
hello goodmorning how you've been?
yesterday I left my head kicked in
I never ever thought that I could fall like that
I never knew that I could be hurt this bad
I'm learning to breathe
I'm learning to crawl
I'm finding that you and you alone can break my fall
I'm living again
awake and alive
I'm dying to breathe in this abundant skies
this is the way that I say I need you
this is the way that I say I love you
this is the way that I say I know
this is the way this is the way November 15 sleep tonightSlEEp 2nyt
it's raining down again and it's making me sane
for atleast some pain are being washed away
i can cry for no one will ever notice it
now that i'm drenched and lost under the rain
a scar that won't heal from a battle that I lost
of emotions of feelings the one I hate the most
maybe it's time to sleep and rest for a while
for all your punches are making me cry
dreamland's been a friend a sanctuary for me
to leave all my feelings and to experience some peace
but I'm feeling the burden even in my sleep
tho I know it's not real but now it's too deep
I don't want to think you please give me this night
let me win just for ince and let me sleep tonight
October 11 think bi*ChTHINK Bi*cH!
standing still with this wicked wind
clouding my thought, my mind, my will
don't waste much time just think it twice
would you eat it sweet or would you add some spice
would you look forward and learn from the past?
would you choose to cry would you chose to smile?
it's only a scar and in time it 'll dry
hurt yourself now and live till you die
make a move go run if you must
no, stop and think you'll leave 'em behind
is it enough would it be your last?
moments come too pass and all that's left are rusts
loneliness is eating you inch by inch
and now you're missing the laugh of the witch
you're scratching and everything you are is an itch
suckers, motherf*ckers time is a ticking like a bitch...
October 07 the senseless mind of a sad clownTHE SENSELESS MIND OF A SAD CLOWN
It was a hard day to feel the breeze
and you can't listen to the song with ease
all worlds turned black and you lost your keys
to the place that you knew will give you peace
You heard all reasons yes you heard it all
and you had enough you're about to blow
you're sick of life and it's freaking flaws
with pain and sores still to live you chose
you're fightin' you're learnin'
yes your faith is still workin'
you're alive still hopin'
and you are still prayin'
hey God I know you're there
I know you'll never leave us scared
I know you'll never be unfair
you never gave me more what I can bear
Like the tick-tock the timebomb and you're alsmost exploding
but if you explode you know it would result to nothing
so you chose to be silent to rather die coughing
than seeing them in pain than seeing them dying
Allan a lonely f**king poema lonely f**king poem
Happiness seems so far away
as the sun seems to fade this day
' still can't understand why should it end this way
euphoria is nothing but a word that day...
It's hard to decipher
the words, the deceiver
this nothingness seems to conquer
my soul, oh my redeemer...
that joy that moment
yes we built a monument
but it cracked and down it went
it made our spirit's bent...
In between two walls
I shouted but no one heard my call
and all I got were echoes from this quiet halls
loneliness laughs as I fall...
It's sad here when friends aren't 'round
it's dark here no lights no murmuring sound
this shattered soul is waiting to be found
comfort me i'm lost like a senseless hound...
I'm looking forward but I'm seeing nothing
the future seems dark with pain and crying
time will come and I know soon I'll be seeing
of what I've been asking my whole life I've been looking
like a dead plant lying on the ground and fading
bacterias been feeding on me, it's killing
this words may be futile to those of you with no feelings
my soul is drawn out I need a new beginning...
Allan
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